Sunday, March 13, 2011

My story


I am currently 9 months and 2 weeks pregnant. The baby's father wanted nothing to do with her and although I know I could be a single mom and survive... I wanted a better life for my daughter... I want her to have the blessings that come through having an eternal family and having a worthy priesthood holder as a father. I started working with an amazing case worker at lds family services and from there found an incredible couple on itsaboutlove.org. Josh and Nicola (the couple) are the most wonderful people I have ever met and the moment I first saw them I knew that they were meant to be her parents. The overwhelming amount of love I feel for my little girl has made this decision difficult and easy at the same time... I love her enough to want to give her more than I can at this point in my life but handing her over to someone else is going to be the most difficult thing I could ever do. I know this is whats best for us both and I could never do this without all the love and support I am receiving from family and friends. I am so blessed to have found this amazing couple and through this process be able to bless their lives as well as my daughters. I know not everyone can see how incredible this is... and a lot of people may not agree with open adoption or my decision... but this is what is right and this is what the Lord wants me to do and I know that beyond a shadow of a doubt. I will always be her mother, but Josh and Nicola are her parents and her eternal family. I cannot wait for the day to see them all sealed together. I will always love my daughter more than anything and that is why I want to do this for her. I love you Berlin Elizabeth Jensen... without you my life would not be the same.

Friday, March 4, 2011

Celebrating 23 years...






On Wednesday March 2 Nicola came down to Mesa to celebrate my birthday a little early. Pedicures were the best thing I could think to do while 9 months pregnant, but even then we celebrated early. It was a really fun time... my mom, Kelsey, and Samantha joined in and we went out to lunch at BJ's afterward. Kelsey, of course, brought the camera and so we got some fun pictures too. It was a great day to relax and have girl time. So thanks everyone who made it possible... and especially mom for treating me to a few luxuries! :) love you all lots!